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Monday, April 02, 2007

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 02:58:30 GMT

robotics was okay, life has been alright I guess, everybody's leaving for spring break...I'm gonna get my hair done soon, got shit loads to do, lkasdjflkasdjflasdkfj
that's the style I want

I pseudo live

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 02:34:21 GMT

I'm at Robotics.

I shouldn't be up

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 06:55:01 GMT

I mean it's 2:41 in the fucking morning, I've already slept and now I can't fall back asleep.Our printer isn't working so I can't finish my project that;s due 2nd block, and I need to get all my paper works signed. I had OM today, got nothing done, have robotics today...better really make some progress or I might quit, both....at which point, what would I ever have to do...like at 1 am when I wake up and goes downstairs to sew OM costumes, that would be no more >.<' so now I'm embrodiering a scarf, not the funnest thing at 3 am. but at least school is fun so far, and I have lunch with Lucifer<3 everyother day it seems...and most of my classes don't really consist of people who try to talk to me, so I can go on about my day just reading my book, which Sean stole, even though I SHOULD BE reading the summer reading books because I have all class thursday to work on the project for it, but I haven't read the second book and don't remeber the first....hmmph....ah well, I have untill tuedsay, and no school monday, so that's what I'll be doing in most likely hood....yuk >.> Kill Hannah and Jrock has taken over my computer, and anything not japanese seems to not exsist....it's weird I'm too asian to not be asian...hmmph...I'm losing myself agian though, I can feel it, like talking to Marie today....I could tell that I'm almost gone, already, and I was doing so well at keeping at least a shred of myself still intact, ever around others. I mean most people think I enjoy talking, they think I like conversations and that I have friends, and I hate myself for lying to these poor kids, well actually I'm not even lying, they're merely assuming beyond what I'm implying...ah well. I still have some friends. Most people are merely accquaintances, but that's alright, they make me seem slightly more normal, having people who say hi passing in the hall, but never really seem to stop to talk to ME.....it's alright, I need those people, so I don't repeat my past, it's just that well, I miss my past, I miss being me, and reading all day, I miss not having to respond to these sheep who just do everything they are expected to because it's expected....does that make sense? Also, today I saw a girl who I swore was Marie, until I realized half of her hair was black, but it was the same length, and style, or lack thereof really, as Marie's, indian choker and tons of jewerly and that slightly odd style about the way she walked and carried herself, as though she knew someone was looking and she was telling them, I know what you're thinking, because, well...I'm me....

This must seem pychotic to most people, and no kids I'm not on drugs. This is merely a half logical rant if you know me, if you don't, you probably haven't a clue what or who I'm talking about, and that's alright, that's half my point...but I do have to say, don't expect my to be social, I'm not, I never have been and I never will be, I talk only so people feel I never shut up and eventually just stop listening, and that's not working, but I never really feel comftorable enough to stop talking, it's my coping mechanism, because I can't infact hide as I used to be able to, not for the most part.I should just give up, throw what people think of me out the window, and have my printer follow that. I might just do that....maybe....

Happy 2007

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 21:12:09 GMT

I'm gonna act like I care how all of you spent your new years eve, and if you enjoyed your past year, even though for most of you, I know what happened for the most part, and it would take to long to really go into anything, but either way, you can tell me how you think your year could be summed up, and how you spent your New Years Eve, just so I don't feel so bad for telling you a little bit about how my time was spent.

Vampire/Goth movies=great way to ring in the new year...Dracula is pretty fucking hilarous, it helps to have a cuddly goth explaining the good points of being creepy though, then realizing 10 minutes after the new year you sorta missed it...hehehe, either way, it was fun.

I'm begining to see what's wrong with me, I always talk about lying to other about beinging social, right? but I've realized, I've been lying to myself, saying not only do I need people to konw me, I've told myself I have people who know me, and not until recentaly have I felt like I've found people who I'm comftorable knowing me, but I think I have now. Thank Goddess for AWA kids, and the concert kids ^.^

Here's to the New Year, I hope it will be filled with Jpop/Jrock, amazing aquaintences and a few good friends as well as tons of Concerts and Kill Hannah, and but of course, mangas and books!

A special thanks goes out to a few who have helped me a lot, most of them without ever realizing it at all
~Skit, Kelsey, Darian and all you, who I no longer speak to, you showed me a lot about people, the world and myself.
~Erin, I owe you a lot, you really helped me learn to open up and talk to people, how to really enjoy myself ^.^
~Olivia you rock, thanks for being just as dumb as I am, and making fun of me for the dumb things, it's nice to know I'm not to oly one laughing and being laughed at
~Lucifer, as I've said, you're amazing, thanks for not being gay >.<, hehehe
~Courtney, Ellie, and Livi while you don't think that much about it, you've showed me a lot about myself as well, thanks for all of it, but I still want my book back...
~Elise, Lian, Samar, Parissa, Melissa, Ethan, etc...what can I say, I now am sure I hate parties and that while I can have lots of aquaintences, I don't really need to feel as though I have to open up to everyone who wants to talk to me

^.^

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 14:58:46 GMT

I feel bad for Olivia.....hehe poor girl. oh well
My boyfriend is a moron, he left his phone and stuff for his camp thing. >.<
crakers=amazing food and cooked spinach is degusting.
There is nothing to do around here so I had Mollie, Olivia and Lucifer over for Movie night agian last night, it was fun, we ate so much though, it was pretty funny.

I still have to start my summer reading, and look over my schedule >.<' My brother's band mate broke his hand and they're not sure if they'll be able to play their show on the 6th, which is really sad....I'm tired as anything and it looks like I'm gonna hafta bike up to the Library, but now it's sorta cold...eck I still need to find the book list first >.<' and my computer deleted quite a lot of stuff from it for me, too bad it was all stuff like internet explorer and window media player, the stuff I used....:P I need to see some friends I haven't seen in a while, I've decided.

Tuti Loves me

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 05:45:27 GMT

Tuti is god, and Aiba is his demi-god, obey his hips ^.~

life is pretty amazing, save not getting to see Marie and Wolfie, everything is amazing. Erin and I have been hanging out more, which is cool, Olivia and I are becoming better friends, I'm begining to really feel like I might fit in with a few people ^.^ it's nice, and then of course Lucifer is just amazing, and sweet, and adorable, he makes me happy ^.^ and my parents and their friends even like him...O.o? no school to worry about right now, save the summer reading, which I'm gonna get the books for tomorrow...>.<' but all I have is OM and Robotics, which isn't that bad. big comfy chair+ party upstairs+harry potter movie=joy ^.^ **snuggles** I'm generally happy and rather illogical sounding, back to my stack of yoai and box of Pocky ^.^

Busy Fucking Week

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 07:26:14 GMT

so yeah, sunday, twiching all day from muscle spazes...yuk, went to a movie and coffee with Lucifer, after thinking the whole week that we were supposted to go out with like 7 other kids to Little 5...oh well, had a lot of fun,, met some of the kids he knew...can only imagine what they thought of me...>.< **twictch**
Monday-Dr.'s during lunch, tried to get through the day without killing myself, then OM came over to build, we didn't but we started watching asian movies and decided a need for asian movie night. we also got the stuff to build with ready...sort of, trust not boys in a basement with sharp or flamable things

Tuesday-school as usual, physics test *.* totally had forgotten about it, agian...Orc Dress rehearsal after school, thearpy for my arm then sleep

wensday-busy busy, before school turn in all math, take history test, then 1st peroid, then hearing test, then back for third and fourth, with orc rehearsal and not learning anything, then GSA with a speaker who isn't allowed to be on campus due to bad planning, then Mag Fag party, then another Dr.'s appointment

thurday-school, then Dessert Concert, then Concert

Friday-school, test or three, Orc Party, Asian Movie night...

I'm pretty awesome...becuase pretty much everyday but ~~today~~ yesterday involves seeing Lucifer<3 ^.^ and I looked uber special ed for quite some time..I rock

I need to fix my computer...yuck

Off to Auburn

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 03:23:07 GMT

Alright kids, I'm gone >.<' or at least I will be at 6 am on friday. I'm going to Auburn for robotics. now technically I could be back by saturday, but there's little to no fucking way I'm getting on so you can lack comments on this so I'll be back Sunday to all of you. Also, Sunday try not to call after like 4, if you really need me then call, if not, I'll prolly kill you. I'm so excited for my weekend, and what's worse, I'm more excited about Lucifer's Birthday than my trip to Auburn >.<'

P.S~~.yesterday~~ today was cosplay day at school. Lolita's are still not people to trash talk or harass. and don't wear short poofy skirts on very windy days >.<

G.S.A. update!

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 03:04:02 GMT

new update kids!
Alright, so our interview got cancelled sadly. More pressing news came up, but that's alright. We'll be having a meeting tomorrow, incase you missed the anouncement, in Room 212 from 3:30-4:15. We'll be discussing gay marriages in the media and we will have a presentation from our President. The e-mail list was attempted, and will be re-attempted for reasons beyond my control, please bear with us as we set up. Also, for those of you who have been attending, first thank you, second I will be in contact with the KPA on saturday at a function with some of it's members. So everyone please come and have fun, as always everyone is welcome and I hope to see you there!
~Annie

An update for you all

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 16:46:56 GMT

so I haven't been on here for real in quite some time, well i've been busy with Robotics, School, OM, thanksgiving, planning things, redoing my room and trying to find food that I can eat.

So my week has been sunday I cooked my muffins and such for tuesday,
Monday-school and stayed after for something or another....then cooked more
Tuesday-School the thanksgiving feast during lunch, catching kenny on fire with a mirror, then OM then came home and slept...
Wnesday-Mall withmother, hoping for new glasses or contacts, then Andrew's Party.
Thursday-cooked, ate. slept and planned friday
Friday-Ran errands, got new film. Lian, Lucifer<3 and I went to Merideth's house, took some photos at the playfround, played with her dogs, hung out, Lian went home, the three of us went back the Merideth's house then she had to go to diner so Lucifer<3 and I went to the chucrch playground, then the creek, then his parents called to ask if I wanted to come to their bonfire, so I came home, made dinner, went to his house, threw stuff in the fire, my parents got there and helped us throw stuff in and we came home ^.^
it was good...